We will continue to view this differently. The reason I'm no longer a JW is because I was doing some research, and I read the bible very closely. My goal was to gain a better understanding, my heart was open to what it had to say. No one is more surprised than me that it all fell apart upon deep consideration. And when it did, it wasn't just my religion that fell apart, but the bible and god. With the best intentions I asked one question too many, and there is no going back. If I had been looking to discredit it, we could argue that bias was the cause of this change. But it never even occured to me that studying deeper and deeper would drum me straight into disbelief.
I don't understand why things work the way they do... in the order that they do. I received the Spirit of Christ and there was no going back. Now if the Bible seems contradictory it bothers me, but not enough to lose my faith, because the Spirit has done so much good for me. I will worship Christ for that, and in addition the Spirit filters the scriptures for me, explaining things as I read... Now what if things happened in a different order and I researched the OT deeply before receiving the Spirit? It seems that would definitely cause disbelief for me. I do have faith that God is all wise and His justice is perfect and He continues to be in control.
Love to you and yours, SOG