The last year has been a horribe one for me, in the span of less than a year the following things have happened to me:
- Lost my mom to cancer
- got hit by a car
- had a professional set back that will cost over 600k to resolve
- Ended a three and a half year relationship
With the exception of your mother passing away it sounds like you have a great chance to make a fresh start. The best way to screw that up is to go back to old habits. I highly doubt you would set yourself back up to lose another $600K or get into another relationship doomed to failure… So why go back to a cult?