Oh yes, I can totally relate with how you feel ProfCNJ. I remember turning up at the end of a Thursday night meeting to collect my mother very early on in my fade and as I heard the final song and prayer, instead of feeling guilty as I had previously felt when missing meetings, I had a wonderful warm feeling of peace and relief wash over me that I had made a stand and not put myself through two hours of WT indoctrination. I think I used the excuse of feeling sick which was quite true as I was sick to death of that religion.
Edited to say, I don't think my initial guilt was because of missing the meetings, but more to do with worrying my family.