Did not Attend Mid-Week Meeting but Felt Good

ProfCNJ

Hi folks. I don't know. The usual feeling for me - when I missed mid-week meetings - is to feel guilty, sad or depressed. It normally involved negative feelings.

But last night, I found myself just fetching my family from the Kingdom Hall after arriving while the closing song is being sung. Instead of feeling guilty again, I felt good inside. There's a sense of peace and degree of freedom. I told myself "this is quite strange".

Why is this? Have you experienced the same feeling before? Or because I made up my mind about the continuing indoctrination of the Organization (which I personally know) and that there's spiritual malnourishment in the meetings?

oppostate

I agree, missing a meeting leaves me with a much quiter and peaceful feeling.

Having to attend once in a while to keep relatives off your back is definitely a chore.

Having to listen to mind numbing talks and experiences that make you want to scream "B*llsh*t!" is troublesome.

And having to hold back puking at some of the comments from brain washed publishers is difficult.

So much nicer to avoid the black void of KH meetings.

KateWild

I know what you mean about feeling good about missing meetings. You know it's all nonsense so it's refreshing to have a break from it all. Kate xx

OneEyedJoe

It's been a long time since I felt guilty for missing a meeting. I think it was about the time that I realized that I hadn't learned anything new or enlightening that wasn't arbitrary "new light" at the meetings since my teens. Since I have a pretty good memory, I didn't feel the need to go and have stuff repeated to me ad nauseum.

Since learning TTATT, it's gone from being something of a relief the days that I miss to being either a greatly joyous or very frustrating occasion on the days that I miss meetings. Joyous when my wife stays home with me, frustrating otherwise.

prologos

Remember dropping the family off at this summer's RC, took them to their seats.. Then, on the way home I had the strangest quiet, peaceful feeling about the world. As if the promise of Peace at last had been fulfilled, the earth was clean, problem free.

cult classic

It's called Relief!

fastJehu

I had the same feeling.

Also visiting this and other "forbidden" websites. Always feel gulity. Now - I feel good.

I learned on this website more about the bible as my hole active JW time.

ambersun

Oh yes, I can totally relate with how you feel ProfCNJ. I remember turning up at the end of a Thursday night meeting to collect my mother very early on in my fade and as I heard the final song and prayer, instead of feeling guilty as I had previously felt when missing meetings, I had a wonderful warm feeling of peace and relief wash over me that I had made a stand and not put myself through two hours of WT indoctrination. I think I used the excuse of feeling sick which was quite true as I was sick to death of that religion.

Edited to say, I don't think my initial guilt was because of missing the meetings, but more to do with worrying my family.

jam

Missing my first assembly was worst, and so happen we

had a earthquake(CA) that day.LOL

Aunt Fancy

I walked away two years ago and I never had one bit of guilt at all. By the time I finished COC I knew it was mostly lies and it was a relief for me to never go back. It was hard enough when I didn't know the real truth sitting there but once I found out everything there is no way I could sit there and listen to any of it.

Did not Attend Mid-Week Meeting but Felt Good - Strange Feeling?