Posts by Joyzabel

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My Story

by SmokeEater in

i've been going back and forth between this board and other exjw boards, and decided it's time to put my story out.

i think it's theraputic in a way.... well a little background.

my father is black, and my mother native american (this is important down the road).

Joyzabel

Welcome to the board, SmokeEater,

Thank you for sharing your story with us. It helps a little doesn't it?

As you are finding out, there are no answers, but at least you are asking questions. Please make yourself comfy here and learn to heal.

j2bf

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Which Hand Is Yours???

by Mister Biggs in

during our previous or current stint in the org, we all know that each congregation had a publisher who had a peculiar way of raising his or her hand.. do you remember.... 1)...the 'black power' one?

i know the answer!

4)...the 'yosemite sam' one?

there was an old farmer who would just barely lift his finger, while it was on his lap, to signal he had an answer. It got to be such a joke that serveral of us starting doing the same little gesture just to frustrate the wt contuctor. hehe After that, the poor guy conducting the wt would jump at any movement in the audience and would call on them. (it was a very small congo of just 20 :-) )

j2bf

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Part 18: The Last Stand - My Brother's Gift

by Amazing in

part 18: the last stand my brothers gift .

i had almost forgotten about my brothers gift.

the amalgamated wedding was now well over 2 years in the past.

Joyzabel

WOW Amazing.

Thank you so much for sharing your experiences and thoughts. You will never realize how much you have helped and are still helping others exit this mind control group.

I especially liked your comments: "My only shame is that I was ever part of this absurdity in the first place ... that I stayed so long ... and that I participated to some degree in the events that seem to never end.

What is all this worth to me now? How do we assess the reason for our experience as JWs? What can we take with us that will prove useful to others so that we can leave this world a little better than we found it? My only thought is to act like “social antibiotics” and be there to help others exiting cults ... or better yet – preventing their entry in the first place ..."

My thoughts exactly.

Again THANK YOU.

j2bf

33

I've Cried for Days

by Smoldering Wick in

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i have been separated from the jws now for 4 years.

the first year, i went into a deep and severe clinical depression.

i think that's what happens when you are 3rd generation jw, born and raised.

Joyzabel

Smoldering wick.

Thank you for sharing your story. It sounds so similar to mine.

Like you I have always be quiet when it came to discussing spiritual things. So that’s not why I come to this board. I come to heal from the emotions of leaving a mind control group.

Just a suggestion that is helping me, I’ve read all of M.Scott Peck’s books. “The Road Less Traveled, Farther Along the Road Less Traveled, etc. It helped me deal with caring for myself.

There is no magic wand to wave and make this whole wtbts thing go away. But I hope you find the strength to get on with your life and live it the best you can.

I’m always willing to listen and share what I can.

j2bf

ps, look at all the warm help and desires to listen to you already posted here.

36

It's Finally Over!!

by DIM in

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my wife and i attended our last meeting last night.

it wasn't so bad, since it was bookstudy and they threw a little party for us afterwards - we are moving to wa from pa next week.

we will never set foot in a kingdom hall again - feels great.

Joyzabel

Congradulations DIM & MS DIM

I'm so jealous. Can't move. Like Mrs Rocky 2, keeping a very low profile. Haven't been to a bookstudy since the Daniel book, though. Heard the Isaiah book was a real boring number. Who cares!

j2bf

7

I don't believe it!

by ballistic in

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i got reading that jw board, the one quoted in the post about fred hall.

first of all i was gaging some of it was just stupid.. then i read some other stuff and thought - god how could i have been taken in?.

i keep coming back to this over and over, i can't understand how normal thinking human beings as i was can be taken in by these lies and fantasies.

Joyzabel

Boy Ballistic, can I ever relate to what you are saying.

After 8 months I'm beginning to feel the shock of it all beginning to wear off. It sure takes time.

j2bf

9

BRCI

by larc in

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are any of you going to the brci conference in chicago in june?

Joyzabel

jst2laws & me!

see ya there, can't wait.

j2bf

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READ,READ,READ!-It feels great

by voltaire in

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i've been reading more lately than i ever have, now that i'm on the chopping block to be df.

(actually for the last 2 months, i've been reading away like mad.

i recommend it as a great way to get perspective on life and jws).

Joyzabel

Voltaire,

I read that book in highschool (grad '72)

You summed it up so nicely "If there's a moral for those who may be doubting and lurking on this board, it's this; take your time. It's a long painful journey for some. Don't give up, try not to despair. When you make it to the other side you WILL feel better"

Thank you for sharing your thoughts.

I, too, have been reading my head off the last 8 months and feel like there is so much more to read and learn.

j2bf

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Part 15: The Letter to the Watch Tower Society

by Amazing in

part 15: the letter to the watch tower society .

elder g calls: brother amazing, can we talk.

i saw no reason to hang up so i said yes ... he said, we need to settle some things.

Joyzabel

WOW Amazing.

I can't imagine all the emotions you and your family have gone through. Thank you for sharing them with us. I, too, am looking forward to the rest of this series.

j2bf

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Questions

by Snowflake in

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i really want to read the cofc book, what's the best way to get it?.

also, what is the wts gaining by keeping the org.

is it a money thing?

Joyzabel

look who they lead! need I say more :o)