Welcome pureginseng. I am glad you are feeling better. Eating healthfully is very important.
I am one year older than your Mom.
It is quite difficult to realize the belief system we were brought up in is not 100% The Truth. Keeping your family is very important as long as they are loving. My parents were misled and sometimes mean-spirited towards me and my brothers but I knew it was the religion talking and not their authentic selves.
Try to have a plan for your future and your life. Living someone else's plan will not work well... you will not be happy. I think it is a good start to want to learn English.
What are you passionate about?