I might have copied and pasted all of the above. I’ve read it couple times. And finally the following memory poked its head out of the past.
About 10 years ago I worked in the Facilities Department at the Walton Arts Center in Fayetteville, Arkansas. They had a summer music camp. There were instructors and young teens in every nook and cranny of the building. (Pheromones so thick l could hardly breathe) Parking my cleaning cart in the entrance of one of the smaller restroom l was to clean, I realized just beyond near the alcove leading to an outside garden there was a tutor and a boy holding his sax. The words of the tutor to his student, a boy of perhaps 13, fascinated me. Best l can remember he said:
“... and don’t be tempted to go down the road that some musicians do. To “feel the music” even famous players have gone into drugs or alcohol. You don’t have to do that to play with power, play with feeling. You can take your head and put it in a special place without doing that. Some good musicians use drugs and alcohol to unlock their heart —but after a while it breaks them. You gotta learn how to get into your own head sober.”
Unfortunately l had toilets to clean so can’t say if the kid’s tutor had more than cautions on the matter. Maybe later he gave guidance as you did for Thomas on the safer methods to artistic “madness”.
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Interesting conversation.