I also never disassociated and was never disfellowshipped. I was a bit paranoid years ago about getting caught going to apostate websites. I could go on with the similarities. Anyway, the point would be that you are among people who will get it with no judgement attached. So welcome.
Try meetupdotcom to find other ex-JW's, there are many groups out there.
I have seen door-to-door preachers who were not JW. But I can usually spot the difference with the bookbags. That is changing these days.