Megawatt,
Welcome to the forum.
I personally have learned a lot from this forum.
Someone in a post above suggested your "really examine" the Bible teachings of the WT and then it may assist your quest for truth.
I agree with the person that it is good to examine the Bible, but the trouble is, unless you can throw the monkey off your back, i.e., quit thinking of WT explanations of the Bible, it is a more ardurous journey.
For me, it worked best to completely DESTROY the WT influence in my life by examining all the stupid, mindless, corrupt, teachings that they have had over the past 140 years. Once you don't respect them as 'BIBLE STUDENTS' anymore, it is easier to really look at the Bible in a different way, and not be guilty that you no longer see things 'their way'.
But, you are at the right place to do either or better, both methods.
Wish you the best on your journey for truth.
Brant