Lost,
One of the people that replied to your post was AGENT 7.
I would like to warn you that it was his first post. In his post, he very smoothly tried to place himself and you in the "same boat", with similar problems with mates. In my 60 year old man opinion, he is setting you up to turn to him, as he has now warned you about the rest of us. Please be careful with him, I have a very bad feeling about him.
My name is Brant Jones, and I post as Uninformed, that is UN informed. I have posted for about a year, and I am not the sharpest knife in the drawer. You will find great comfort with a number of good people, some who have suffered like yourself, and some who have been extremely active in the Organization and were either disfellowshipped, like myself, for not accepting the WT daliance with the UN, or others who have walked away.
Since you are new here, I would readily recommend Blondie as a soul that will inform you and protect your interests. There are so many here that will be of great help to you.
There is a feature on this board that you can read other people's post history. I would definitely do that before becoming too confidential with them.
My wife and I and three of our children left the organization one and a half years ago, after many letters to the WT and many elders meetings. 6 months ago, they decided they were not content to just let us walk away after 45 years, but they decided to kick us out.
I was an elder for 30 years. Worked in Bethel as a temp const. worker about 10 times in the 80's and both my sons, one who is still an elder and has disowned us, went to Bethel during the late 80's and early 90's. My son who left with me went through similar problems with a mate that you have, but I am happy to say he is happily re-married, and he and his new wife, also a JW, were very relieved to leave the organization together.
There is life after the Organization, but to be honest, sometimes I still feel depressed and like crying over the lost feelings. You will too for years to come. BUT, the best day of our lives was the day we got disfellowshipped. We KNEW we weren't bad and we KNEW we didn't do anything wrong. THEY did the wrong and disfellowshipped us for their sin. What a blessing it has been to be apart from that Organization.
Please, again, be careful with Agent 7, methinks he is a double agent.
Brant