I did not read all 4 pages, but I think you were right to be so honest. I wish all people were that way (honest). I wish even more that we were whole enough to hear honest truth.
Look, the old model of marriage is archaic. It places both souls in a slavery position. Women give up their bodies in childbearing and raising (we cannot just walk away in most cases) and in many cases (NOT ALL) subservience. In turn, men give up their wallets--their productivity and energies are largely tied up in sustaining the nest and he concedes his evolutionary drive to inseminate as many and various females as possible. This old model worked very well when the female needed the male hunter/warrior/protector to access food, goods, protection. And the male had no way to bring forth his seed (still true--oh,oh not boding well for men).
As that feminine need fades with modernization, so does the need for the traditional male/female relationship. I want to connect soul to soul. Not just sex (I can easily be monogamous in that area, if my husband ever finds he cannot, I wouldn't hate him forever) but connection and knowing--really knowing and experiencing a variety of people, male and female.
Now, having said that, it produces the question: Where do we go from here? As industrialization grows and our needs are more easily met, how do we share this planet and raise up young humans? Time will tell, but it has been postulated that with advances in genetics (cloning to propogate the species) and robotics (to take out the trash and change the oil in cars), the human male as he has always existed (to inseminate, protect, provide) could become obsolete. I mean, we already have plenty of people aplanet. Wanton spreading of seed is not needed any longer from an evolutionary standpoint. Both genders need to evolve. Women past their need to be provided for, the men beyond the need to spread ala Johnny Appleseed. Now that the hierarchy of needs has been met, let's do something creative!
Welcome your female overlords!
~Brigid