Posts by Cat-er-daynightfever

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Is there anybody out there?

by Cat-er-daynightfever in

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i feel lonely.

i am depressed.

i just visited the silentlambs website and do not know how they chat there, if they even do at all.

Cat-er-daynightfever

P: Post T:Traumatic S: Stress D: Disorder

It is a viable disability in the United States and the government accepts. It usually happens to those who suffer from great traumas. Like being forced to leave the B-org when we're good people who always try to do right. For instance, I was molested and raped by my father, my older brothers beat me, and I have been raped. When I go into situations that just happen to remind me of certain wounds and tend to say way too much and beyond. People are very turned off by this and are scared to be around a 'crazy' person. If I could just die peacefully in my sleep and never have to wake up to this horrific world, I would be better off. I would have finally found peace as long as God (I do still believe in God.) is really and truly the way that Jesus describes. After leaving the b-org just a year ago, banished for what amounted to my needing to get married due to my degrading mental health. Every day I stayed a witness I came closer to committing suicide because I inadvertently received the blame for being molested and men didn't want me no matter how decent I was personally.

Right now, I have to stay awake until my husband gets up around 5 AM American CST.

I don't know if you have ever been blamed for what the evildoer has done to you. An abuse victim will generally project the blame upon him/herself. I always believed I was somehow bad. Being df'd has not made me feel any better. It makes me feel that these slanderers who do not understand my way of speaking when triggered might have some substance to what they are saying; even though, I, personally, have never done any other human any wrong. I just wish that I could hide away from people and never come out, but I need them.

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Valentine's flowers arrived!

by cyberdyne systems 101 in

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hi there friends, i was having a particularly bad weekend/week, feeling all lonely and fedup.

when i get a delivery of red roses!!!

wow i tell you it really made my day.

Cat-er-daynightfever

Hey, my husband is supposed to take me out this afternoon for an early dinner since there will be a rush on dinner later at the restaurants. I like roses, too, but I prefer daffodils.

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Is there anybody out there?

by Cat-er-daynightfever in

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friends

i feel lonely.

i am depressed.

i just visited the silentlambs website and do not know how they chat there, if they even do at all.

Cat-er-daynightfever

thanks for answering my call for communication with a live person. I am suffering from severe PTSD. I have been triggered much and I have said things people usually take out of context in ways that make me infamous to others. Sometimes I'd like to be euthanized for safe measure. I understand that there is some place through the SLb's group that if I need to run away and hide from civilization I can. I wonder if they will help me if my husband dies. I would need real friends then. My family are either abusive people or JWs. One of them is a flagrant apostate who raped my father. Anyway, I just don't want to be around those kind of people. I want to be around my mother and younger brother, but, as you, the whole Dfg thing is what I get even from them. I want to be around people, but I say the most strange of things due to the PTSD I suffer. Is there any light at the end of the tunnel?

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Is there anybody out there?

by Cat-er-daynightfever in

jw
friends

i feel lonely.

i am depressed.

i just visited the silentlambs website and do not know how they chat there, if they even do at all.

Cat-er-daynightfever

I feel lonely. I am depressed. I just visited the silentlambs website and do not know how they chat there, if they even do at all. Anyone else understand my need to cry right now. have you ever really said too much that caused such a stir and people to try and cause you real problems....?

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Is There ANYTHING Good About Jehovah's Witnesses?

by minimus in

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anything???

?

Cat-er-daynightfever

Slugga said:

Ehhhhhh...

Apparently dub girls are dirty and not in the smelly way

:)

Is there anyone else out there that finds this statement rather offensive? He actually seems like the type of brother I would have run into that would have thought that he could get away with treating me in a raping fashion because he was under the wrong impression that he could get away with taking advantage of a sister. Dealing with brothers like him were some of the reasons why I had to leave!!!!

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"Jehovah Unmasked!"

by sf in

http://people.lulu.com/users/index.php?fhomepage=225208

http://www.lulu.com/content/167431

the author, nathaniel j. merritt, has been hitchhiking his way to enlightenment since he was a teen.

Cat-er-daynightfever

So he's not omnipotent, then? Didn't he lie when he told Adam that eating the fruit would kill him the same day?

IMO, just as in the physical sense, I believe that could apply to death in the spiritual sense (along with dooming the physical body/losing immortality -- a sentence of physical death), hence the need for salvation.

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WHAT AMAZING NEWS I JUST RECIEVED.

by orangefatcat in

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who ever said god doesn't hear prayers.

tonight i just found out via es on jwd that she knows my nephew in australia and here is the amazing kicker, my nephew is d/f, i couldn't believe what i was reading.

i am so happy and excited i am ready to bust.

Cat-er-daynightfever

Hey, Terry, I saw your wonderful news and that you just happened to be online right now. I wondered if you would like to chat for a while.

Cat

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On a whim, stopped by the library for books on Jerusalems destruction

by ithinkisee in

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so i was driving by the library on my way home today and remembered i do have a library card and decided to go in and do my own research on 607 bce.

i figured i might find a book or two in our little old library.

i did a search on the library's computers for "jerusalem history" and got a handful of books ... i wrote down the dewey decimal number (or whatever it is) of one of them (they are all in the same general section) and headed to the reference wing of the library.

Cat-er-daynightfever

I was just curious. Did you find the dates for the beginning of Jewish exile? I would like to know when the exile began and when it ended because exile might have started before 586 BCE as far as I know. If I can honestly see that there is no discrepancy in the 70 years prophesied, my doubts about the Bible's fulfillment of the 70 years in exile will be gone. I get scared that maybe the Bible isn't true when I can't go to Jewish websites and hear exactly when the Jews were released from exile.

I understand that what is recorded by the Babylonians themselves as to the date of destruction is accurate. The call for the Jews to go back and rebuild was not given until 4-- BCE. Is it possible that although the Babylonians were destoyed in 539BCE that the Jewish exile continued until the Medes and Persians let them go?

What were the name of some of those books that you found? Maybe I can find them at the library, too.

I've been rather lost in my beliefs since I found out that JWs lied about many things. I just want to back up the Bible's teaching whatever it may be as to when the exile began and when it ended. Since 607 BCE is wrong, what really is right?

Cat

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Apostasy - A Racist Movement?

by slimboyfat in

firpo carr argues that while many white apostates claim to highlight so-called 'racist' remarks and terminology in the watchtower literature, most such apostates are in fact white and have little real interest in black issues.

they are only interested in the issue in so far as they can use it to promote white anti-witness propaganda, whereas a high percentage of loyal witnesses are black.

i know that all the terms of my topic are debatable: apostacy is a witness term of derogation; apostates probably are mostly liberal and not racist (essentially); and they are not a 'movement' in any case.

Cat-er-daynightfever

I see nothing but idiocy in your statements, SBF. Jehovah's Witnesses that really believe that God is not partial take that feeling to their grave even if they leave the JWs. Any mention of JWs & their racist comments after having left is just another fact to be added to the rest of the lies told us. I was under the impression that since God was not partial neither were the "anointed". I had no idea of said information published in the publications until I did leave. I tell you that I see more discrimination of social class based on how much money you earned and whether you were related to the elders/ministerial servants/pioneers. When I was able to see such quotes, it gave me more reason to believe that all the talk throughout the 80s that JWs were not racist at all was nothing but bunk!

I have met many people who like to throw the back-door racist comments on those who've done nothing but respect all people. Frankly, I don't believe that an apostate movement actually exists to the extent that you are saying. Otherwise we would be seeing the development of another kind of Borg. Maybe there are Apostafests, but I have never heard of any one single apostate leader becoming a pastor for the rest. I don't believe that those who are truly sincere would ever say such things unless they were true. All-in-all, I think you are just trying to confuse the real issue that bothers you. I agree with the others. You are just trying to start a fight and waste our time.

Just because we left the Borg, doesn't mean that many of our core beliefs are not the same. Like the Basic command, "Do unto others as you would have them do unto you." Wake up and smell the roses. Nobody here is making truly racist comments. They are just repeating what they've seen quoted and are appalled by the lies. Quit wasting my time!

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Did losing your religion send you into/exacerbate depression?

by SixofNine in

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i think most of us here agree that our past belief in the jw organization as being god's sole chosen people was delusional on our part.

for myself, when i lost that delusion (fairly abruptly too), i came out of a long period of depression immediately.

while i was incredibly angry at having been decieved, i can't say that that anger translated into any other negatives, in fact, overall, i think my general level of anger, even at elders/the gb/etc subsided, as i now understood why they do what they do even better than they themselves understand it.

Cat-er-daynightfever

I decided to take a plunge and get married despite their grumblings. I had to leave due to being boxed in the unmarriageable category. The mere loneliness made me crazy. I couldn't help but try to change. they made me want to kill myself. My husband, a non-JW, was very supportive. I wouldn't touch the "apostate" stuff for a few months. I was so overcome by guilt and shame and feelings that God could have cursed me. It has taken a little research and reading to have my guilt removed. But getting kicked in the stomach because I was so angry because I had been lied to. It nearly ate me alive. I barely finished my semester. I hated myself and them for raping my spiritual innocence and telling me boldfaced lies. It still makes me angry. I am still learning the art of getting angry at those who have hurt me without blaming myself for what they did to me. I hate them for their criticism of everybody and everything while they're doing the same crap the other religions are. I am relieved of the burden of guilt that maybe God cursed me for leaving. He obviously wanted for me to leave. I wanted the truth despite guttrenching pain. I am s-l-o-w-l-y weeding my way through the Search for Christian Freedom. I take it a few pages at a time. But it is all coming through loud and clear that I have been a part of an apostate religion that took all control away from my mediator to cry out in my defense before God. They had no right to usurp his position and add to the law making it rigid and unbending, even unmerciful. May God be just as merciful with them as they have been with me.

I couldn't pray for a long time, but that passed. The deepest part of my depression/grieving period is now over. I am free to think and feel and be myself at all times without their criticism. ---- them all!!!