Good topic. I had alot of experiences dealing with that. I was always on the outside looking in. Even though I was a dedicted JW, something was always missing. I never really fit in, never fit the mold. Eventually you become used to it. I stopped going to any witness social gatherings about 10 years ago. I even stopped going to all weddings, because I didn't have to come home feeling like there was something wrong with me. That was a big part of why I eventually left the organization. As for service, I usually went with my family. It was alot safer that way.
Dustin