SwampThing,
Welcome to the forum. I respect the fact that you have such insight in our matters, and yet with so few posts. It shows you are intersted in these matters, and yet let the ones who have been throught it, speak and heal.
As was stated above, it's truly subtle. And as LadyLee mentioned, it could perhaps be due to circumstances. I also was an adult, I was 22. I was simple fearful of death! I had a mixed upbringing of different faiths, and had what I thought was wrongful information. So at 22, my temporary answer was the WT. What they then said sounded appealing. And I went with it.
But there comes a period in everyones lives, where you come to realize that you have other insights. And so you start pondering and questioning about things. And this is where I am now at. It has been a turning point in my life, but there is no going back. It was a stepping stone to come to other realizations. Based on life's experience.
I hope this helps,
Puternut