Thanks for the experience.
Many components rang true with mine.
When you realize you've been duped, it's very hard to deny it any more.
Overlapping Generations instead of "Millions Now Living Will Never Die" started the ball rolling for me.
I also was inactive and resigned as a MS before I got the "courage" to look at "apostate web sites" on the internet. This is interesting and ties into the idea of information control or prohibition or certain things. When in field service, we were expected to converse with anyone and everyone. ( apostates live in the territories ) The only time we would turn away was if the householder said they were DF'd or apostate. So scary!!
Now I'm DF'd for "admitted apostasy".
( local legend )
My advice to all that are unsure what to do: stay home and research.
If you can no longer convince yourself that it's "the truth", then quit.
Hardest decision. Best outcome.