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  Need a place to stay...........

  by Sunnygal41 in

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  hi, all.............i need to make a trip to waxahachie, tx to see my terminally ill mom..........being df'd, i am figuring that my sister will not put me up in her house, so, i'm asking if anyone who lives near there could manage to put me up for a week...........i'm hoping for may 19 thru the 26th...........let me know............ thanks in advance,.

  terri.

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  Terri....you are very welcome to stay with me and NOdenial. We are about an hour drive from Waxahachie, TX .

  Even if you have found a place closer...by all means let's meetup!!!!!

  I would love to meet you in person....

  much love and hugs,

  Codeblue
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  Don't read this!! As I am really P....off at the WT and have to vent

  by RedPill2006 in

  1. watchtower
  2. beliefs

  today i have realized (once more) how the watchtower shit cult has ruined my life!

  today i am really pissed off at them...... i'm writing this hoping that two groups of people read this.

  either some watchtower people that monitor this site or people that think to join this crap!.

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  You totally deserve to vent!!! We have all done our share of venting here.

  and by the way...welcome to the board

  Still an elder....how very interesting....maybe one day you can share more info.

  Codeblue
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  34 yrs ago on Sun~a Daystar was born unto us

  by Brigid in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  and the gods rejoiced!!!!

  venus winked at mars as she held another of her native sons and said..."told ya so...you ain't seen nothin' yet".

  okay, don't know why i can't just say it's daystar's birthday on sunday but i'm just weird that way.

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  Daystar....Happy Birthday (belated as it is...)

  Sounds like you had a wonderful birthday!!!

  You and Brigid are AWESOME.....so romantic and poetic the both of you

  Looking forward to catching up with you both soon!!!

  Codeblue
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  Upcoming final Count-Down postings

  by Amazing in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  in my next two postings:.

  count-down 2:best of amazing.

  you can click on these and find easily rather than researching my files ... between my two accounts, amazing, and amazing1914, i have posted almost 5,000 times, and of these i started about 700 new topics.

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  Great idea Jim.

  Don't forget to keep us posted when your book is released....the name of it and where to buy it!!!

  Codeblue
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  I never have done right by you...

  by Sparkplug in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  in talking to my mom the other day (who is doing so well btw) she turned to me and said straight and as sane as can be, "i have never done right by you, don't do as i have done to you to you kids.

  " she got teary eyed and i changed the subject fast because i did not know how to take it nor could i talk with the big lump in my throat.

  i have known this my whole life, and i don't even speak it as plain as she has spoken it, but hearing out of her mouth as she sits in her wheelchair and knowing she means it from her heart and from pure love, well it messed me up a bit.

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  (((Sparkplug)))

  Probably her way of apologizing to you for all the "hurts" she has done in your lifetime.

  Many parents do not apologize.

  I know I have apologized to my kids.....takes a sense of honesty and feeling of trying to get it right to apologize. Nobody is perfect.

  I wished my DAD would have apologized for all the emotional abuse he did........that would have meant a lot to me. He died when I was 28.

  I learned a lot about him and his upbringing and after having a child myself, I can certainly understand him a bit more. He was never LOVED as a child. How the hell would he know as a parent how to love, and shower affection and nurture me? He had no clue. I forgive him for that.

  Looking forward to seeing you at the crawfest!!! (maybe earlier at Hemplover's!!!)

  Codeblue
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  Why can't I just get over it and move on?

  by Crumpet in

  1. jw
  2. experiences

  months have passed now since mr c and i officially separated.

  so why can't i get over it?

  why am i still jealous?

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  It's a normal reaction to having a long term relationship. Also, what you are experiencing is a "death" with no real finalities because your ex is walking around and is alive.

  I was married almost 20 years before my divorce. Even though he cheated on me several times and yes, even with a JW sister who was married and was my best friend.....it took me quite a while to "get over him". Looking at our family photo albums were extremely painful.

  Actually, when my youngest son got married in 2003, the getting over it took place in a most unusual way. My ex came to the wedding and his date was my Bible Study (he use to work with her before she became my Bible study and the day he left me he knew where she was moving with her husband....circumstantual...I think not!!!) I didn't put all the pieces together until she showed up with him at our son's wedding. His old patterns never changed!!! And never will. Let's see... that took me about 4 years to realize he was a scumbag and I was WAY better off without him. Yes I deserved better then him.

  Moving far away from the ex was also a great way of gaining emotional freedom. Not talking to him or having any communication also has a freeing aspect on your life and signals others that you are truly available for a new relationship.

  I now look at the family photo albums and wonder who the hell this guy was.....and why did I ever stay in that relationship so long.

  Hope this helps you out a bit....

  Looking forward to seeing you in Dallas!!!!

  Have a safe flight!

  Codeblue
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  My Mom died yesterday

  by skeptic1914 in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  my mom passed away yesterday.

  she was a die-hard jw.

  i tried to explain why i couldn't accept certain teachings but rather than rationally consider what i had to say she chose to believe i was just "confused".

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  I send you my sincere sympathy

  I was 14 and watched my Mom die of cancer. It was a "defining moment in my life".... I am 50 and still miss her!

  I send you much positive energy to cope with this loss.

  hugs,

  Codeblue
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  Sincere Question to Anyone who Believes in God

  by Big Tex in

  1. watchtower
  2. beliefs

  lately it's occurred to me that one day i will die.

  being raised in a cult that teaches you, you will live forever without dying will warp perspectives.

  and i've been working hard on coming to terms with that realization, and it's becoming more and more okay.

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  (((Big Tex))) You do not sound stupid......at all....stop that thinking!

  I don't claim to have answers just "feelings".

  I guess being raised a JW and living it till I was 46.....I always chose to think of God/Jehovah as a loving parent. As a parent myself, I would never torture my kids if they disappoint me or quit loving them. Maybe that is why I am NOT a JW because I believe in the course of what "love" dictates.

  As far as death and what happens....I guess I dwell on the scriptures about Jesus viewing Lazarus as sleeping...before he resurrected him. I hope it was a "restful, non night- mare sleep however". (I have been having many nightmare's lately when I don't take my anti-anxiety meds.....so I know what night mare sleep is and how unrestful that is)

  Viewing my answers as a loving parent, I chose to believe God/Jehovah would never torture me for my errors in my life, cause after all...I wasn't created perfect. OOPS, I just said that earlier. I often thought of an assembly program where they illustrated how kind and loving god is comparing it to a child who woke up at night, was scared. He ran into his parents bedroom crying and his parent scooped him up and gave him a hug and listened without scolding or belittlement. How comforted that child felt and how secure and loved he felt.

  I don't know why I have had so many bad things happen in my life. I know you have endured much heartache and atrocities.....For that I am deeply sorry I don't think God caused them at all. I have no answers as to why we have had to go through so much in life. In your case, much more then me.

  I hope somehow this answer helps...

  Regardless, I certainly can't wait to see you and Nina at the crawfest and have a good chat

  see ya soon,

  Codeblue
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  Count-Down 5: Spiritual Orgasmic Fantasies !

  by Amazing in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  15-years ago today, i was 40-years old.

  my wife was 39, my kids were 20, 18, 16, and 14. we were in our exit process to be completed by july 1992. i gave my last talk as a jw, the memorial talk.

  i resigned the following sunday, giving up my position as public talk coordinator, and never returned again ... except for a funeral, a wedding, and one last memorial a year later (i didn't want to go, but i attended as a favor to one kind jw.).

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  Happy Birthday Jim....hope you have a wonderful day!

  I agree with you on your thread today.

  They have made the name Jehovah and his son's name stink. They always told us to think about "what would Jesus do" and act accordingly...well, Jesus would certainly not be linked to an organization that disgraces his father's name with the pedophile coverup. HYPOCRISY at it's finest!!!

  The molested victim's being df'd for telling the truth is also appalling.

  Codeblue
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  CRAZYBLONDE,Birthday

  by mouthy in

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  codeblue

  Happy Birthday

  Hope you have a wonderful day!!!

  hugs,

  Codeblue