Tal, I was so moved by your story I was stunned, trying to think of a reply. So many things rushed to mind. I was never molested but I knew something was very wrong with quite a few of the dubs I knew and "filthy" just about says it all.
For years I repressed rage and outrage until the day came when I saw the whole dirty scam for what it was.
We were made into victims by that sick religion. A victim is supposed to take the blame and keep quiet about the crap that goes down. And don't you just love it when they drone: Jehovah KNOWS. Like that says everything.
It's good to see that you have taken the step of voicing your pent-up rage!. I remember when I lashed out in rage for the first time in my life and told my mother what I thought of the whole ugly business. It was like watching someone in a movie...I could not believe I was talking like this..ME the good girl, the obedient daughter, just like yourself. Horrible feelings burst into words but after it was over I knew I was right and what's more I would never let anyone push me around again. Not my family, not my so called robotic friends who came by to warn me not to leave the religion, none of them, not ever again.
The only thing they fear is us being clear and vocal about the shite they are hiding. As soon as you start to expose the truth about their dirty little secrets they scuttle away like cockroaches run from the light.
I can SO relate to your frustration and pain. I hope you know many here are totally with you in this.
(((((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))
