I was so relieved and delighted to find out it wasn't for real. I always expected I would die at Armageddon because I never really gave it everything I had. I'm so glad I didn't or I would probably still believe it. Then I was really angry that my whole life was screwed up by a bunch of lies. Still kinda pissed about that... but I think I have come around mostly to acceptance. These things happen. This isn't the only cult out there, and even mainstream religions can be pretty bad for people.
I'm just so glad I found out.