Brandon, just read your post. I'm really sorry to hear that you are going through this. I wish that I had had this forum back years ago when I went through the same thing. My father started studying *again* and he told me basically that he would shun me like mother did. I didn't have contact with them for almost 13 years. I wish I had the knowledge then that I have now. Sometimes we have to give ourselves what we didn't get from them. So take care of yourself, love yourself, don't let their unfortunate attitudes effect the way you feel about yourself. I still have j.w. siblins that shun me. It's tough, but they truly believe that they are doing the right thing. It's sad and it hurts. It's emotional blackmail. Just let them know that your heart will always be open to them. Hang in there and know that you have people here that care about you and that we are here for you.