I have been reading posts for a while, but everytime i try and post my intro, i dont know what to say, so i suppose i will just write what comes to me.
Lets see, i was born and raised in the "truth", i have never known anything else my whole life, so this is weird for me to think differently. I was df'd about 4 years ago when i met my "worldly" husband, i have tried for the past 2 years to be reinstated, but i guess that i have not tried hard enough, according to the elders (who btw have not been very nice or loving toward me). I have basically given up, and at the same time discovered that this is not really the "truth" and not what i beleive, and certainly not something i am going to teach my 19 month old. To tell you the truth, i am still struggling with this, it feels like my head is spinning, i feel deceived and stupid, especially for taking it for what i have been told and not looking into it myself. The difficulty i am facing now is that my parents and sisters will not talk to me ever again when they find this out, they are really devout JW's. I have such a close relationship with them, that it will hurt so much when i have to cross that bridge. I have lost many friends when i was df'd, and now will lose my family. Its such a difficult thing to deal with. But as my therapist says "they are the one's making the choice". My husband is so supportive of anything i do, and he is also the one (along with my therapist) that opened my eyes to other things, as well as this site and all your expriences and research has helped alot. So i am thankful that you are all here to be a support and somewhere i can come when i dont have anyone else to talk to that understands. I will post alot more now, its just this first step thats the hardest. Thanks for reading!