I have been sneakily looking at this forum, almost every day, ever since it began! It has taken me till now to actually register and contribute. (Actually I did register with a different name in the beginning but never commented).
I am a pimo elder with a fairly long history of senior "positions" in the organization. I am very nervous about giving away my identity so I wont give any details. Over the years I have always had strong doubts, but at the same time was very sincere in my beliefs that Jehovah was using the organization. I am still a bit confused about what I believe. I enjoy reading meletivivlon's website, watching evolution v creation debates (and haven't decided which side I'm on), still read the bible most days for my own enjoyment, pray, but dismiss mentally almost all of the WT nonsense. I am happier than I ever was whilst being an "uber dub" (various forms of SFTS), but still a bit burnt out mentally and physically.
That's basically where I am! Hope this will contribute in some way to my own healing, and that of others.