Now I am worried about my military obligation in a year's time. Will I be able to get myself involve in bayonet fighting?
Been 16 years under bondage by the org. (since birth). The only sin so far is smoking and heavy petting .
Sorry that you are going through all that. Please be gentle with yourself. I can give you a million reasons to understand how ridiculous that concept of "sin" is, but I think that you get that well at the rational level.
If you find it to be a problem that is stopping you from living your life and feeling comfortable in your own skin, I may suggest you to get professional help. You don't need to deal and figure everything out all by yourself. A counselor or therapist who specializes in negative influence may be able to help you with whatever is blocking you.
Leaving that organization physically is not the end of your relationship with them. Please know that many of us have gone/still go through the same or worse.
One of the most important "sins" that you can commit is getting outside help and advise from a mental health professional that understands the negative influence of that organization while remains a complete outside source. Remember we were trained to believe that we "know better" than those professionals, and that the only source of help is not even the Bible, but the gazillions of publications containing their interpretations of it. Ditch that believe and ask for help if you feel like you need it.
And of course, there's this forum.