Hi scared and lonely.
I have come late to this discussion but have taken the time to read through all prior posts, both yours and others.
I guess this forum is pretty much like life:
Some people will warm to you, some will be wary, some indifferent and some change their minds. You will be on a hiding to nowhere if you try to get everyone to either like and/or emapthize with you.
We can all look at what we've done and decide to do better next time. You know now your absolute biggest misstep was mentioning in your OP you had a funding link. Talk about a WTF? decision on your part! For some, it won't matter what you do after that - it will continue to comne across as suspicious. Please take responsibility for that misstep.
I simply don't no whether you are bona fide or not - but for the purpose of this reply, I give you the benefit of the doubt.
For some, that has established you as exploitative, trying to milk sympathy both in word and cash - whether you are exploitative or not is immaterial. It is all to do with first impressions lasting longest.
I could comment on your child-like desperate tone but, hey, I dread to think how I may have sounded in my earlier years if forums such as this had existed. I'd like to think I would have had some presence of mind not to plop in my account some reference to funding. In fact, I can be quite certain I would not have because it is not part of my nature and I have always been self-respecting enough not to want or expect handouts.
You come across as incredibly passive and at the mercy of everyone around you and somewhat unable or unwilling to build a life of your own.
You could do with an independent person to talk this over in confidence. It would need to be someone who has not vested interest in keeping you in the organization or in getting you out. The best option would be a registered counsellor or psychologist. Your local community may have support groups that could point you in the direction of sound help from an independent source.