Hey Stephanie , I read your post and it made me want to stop lurking and finally make an account.
I wrote this list last night but after reading your story I figured I'd post it here as well.
these are some things that help me cope with leaving the cult.
1.Realize that you CAN & WILL overcome the emotional distress you may initially feel upon learning the real truth
2.Come to terms with the fact that you may lose family and “friends”, this comes with the territory of knowing it’s a cult and ultimately wanting to leave.
3.Don’t try to forcefully wake family members from their cult indoctrination . As hard as it is, you have to realize the org is where they are comfortable and as much as you’d like to save them, they have to ultimately save themselves. Like that old saying “ you can take a horse to water but you can’t make them drink”.
4. Realize that it makes no sense stressing about things that are out of your control. You have to focus on YOURSELF and establishing your future. Finding out who you truly are and what you want to be.
5 Enjoy each day as much as you can.
This reminds me of that quote from Troy were Brad Pitt says
“The gods envy us. They envy us because we’re mortal, because any moment may be our last. Everything is more beautiful because we’re doomed. You will never be lovelier than you are now. We will never be here again.”
I use the quote loosely but hopefully you get my drift.Enjoy THIS life and make the most of it.
These are my opinions but hopefully they help a little.
I went from trying to compromise with family by fading to typing my "resignation"letter as I sit in my office today. ( I refuse to willingly use the word disassociate regardless if that's what they require or not)
you will get pass this obstacle and your life will be better than what you expected.
Stay Strong✊🏾, you're not alone
(apologies for any typos I missed lol)