joel do you really think they would welcome you back with open arms? What about the inevitable Judicial Committee that would no doubt bring up parts of your life that they find unscriptual and clearly sinful?...Are you ready to apologize for being who you are? Are you ready to stop being gay? Or did you plan to lie about that part? How could you even consider going back into the closet for that? Real family and real friends wouldn't care who you were or what your sexual preference is..it that the kind of situation you would be going back to? I'm not trying to be offensive or ugly with you, I just think its important to identify what is your real problem, whether its loneliness, your own lack of social maturation that has hindered you making new friends, depression, or a combo of all those things...Take care no matter what you do and try to be good to yourself.