MavMan - You seem to demonstrate a slight uncertainty in the JW's since you mentioned that you would leave it to Jehovah to decide what you will do. That, to me, indicates that you think Jehovah, at least a little, might possibly not want you to go back.
I know this website is not the most friendly to JW's, due in part to the hurt many here have been through. What caused me to reevaluate my entire belief in the JW's was that they teach everyone except JW's will be destroyed eternally in Armageddon. Billions of people. I know many who are not JW's but are good and decent people. Will God destroy them forever because they never joined the organization?
Best wishes on whatever happens with you and let us know how it goes. I'm interested.
"If you're going to get mad at me every time I do something stupid, then I guess I'll just have to stop doing stupid things." - H. Simpson