MOST NOBLE- Although you are still a JW due to family I can tell this elder decision making thing is making you feel guilty. Your statement, " I still feel guilty though on a daily basis, that I'm still being used by the crooks in Brooklyn to facilitate this malicious activity ( DFing people ). " The decision to remain an elder is YOUR decision - you could step down any time you desire. Your statement, " But what can I do, I have to be in for the family ? " Your family will accept you still as a JW if you step down as an elder and then you won't be plagued with a guilty conscience by sentencing young JW's to what you call " spiritual death " - essentially you are sentencing them to being shunned, cut off, and rejected to be octrasized by their families which could send them spiraling into depression and REAL death. Don't WORRY about the alleged " spiritual death " ! That doesn't even matter ! We've had many people here even on the board commit suicide due to being shunned by their stupid JW relatives who follow stupid, inhumane WT Brooklyn policies of shunning.
Look- Unless you are enamored with receiving FAKE praise from fellow JW's and it strokes your ego somehow that you sit in judgment of these young people as an elder determining their fate inside your organization- why not just cease and desist being an elder so you won't feel guilty anymore ? AS I said- Your JW family will still accept you even if you are not an elder, you won't lose them and you'll feel better about yourself so you aren't screwing up young people's lives and relationships with JW family by not participating in judging them or DFing them with other elders. If it REALLY bothers you, you will stop. You are NOT being used by Bethel or Brooklyn- you are ALLOWING yourself to be used by the WT Society- there's a big difference. Think about what I'm saying. Free yourself man of guilt. I'll talk to my inside connections at WT headquarters and absolve you of your sins. Don't worry about it, O.K. ? Free your mind ! Peace out, Mr. Flipper