You just admitted that you want to believe in God because you love him. He "helps" you.
No... I want to follow Him because I love Him.
This has nothing to do with why I would believe He is real. You have to believe in someone BEFORE you can love them; else what/who would you be loving in the first place?
Thus, it follows you are believing because you feel it brings you a benefit. It brings you a reward in that you are "always helped."
I am sorry, but based on what I stated above, can you see how it does not follow?
Being helped, hearing him... these are all evidence toward knowing that He is real. Because if someone is active in your life (and the lives of others), then you do not tend to believe they do not exist.
Please explain to me in what way you are worshiping for nothing? There certainly is a reward for you based on what you are saying here.
Are you perhaps mixing up worshipping (which I would say, loving) with believing?
You have to believe before you worship (love).
Are you saying that you would love Christ/God even if you were not helped? If so, why?
I love because I am loved. I love for the gift of life, for the mercy and compassion and forgiveness granted so freely; for promises kept, for truth and loyalty, and for the sacrifice that Christ made for me, for us.
Were God a tyrant who cared about punishing, and dealing death out, and hating, and torturing... then i cannot imagine that I would love Him.
But it would have nothing to do with whether I believed in him or not. Simply whether I followed Him or not. Though if God were like that, none of us would have much of a choice, imo.
We only have the choice becasue God is as Christ showed him to be.
Now, if you are asking me whether or not I would continue to follow if there was no afterlife reward, or even a personal reward in this life? I say yes, as much as I can state with any certainty to an 'if' question.
We as humans love people who can be of no benefit to us, personally. We love them for who they are. We aren't looking for something in return when we love someone. We just want to do what will make them happy; what will make them pleased with us... simply because we love them. It naturally makes us happy, if we have made them happy.
Peace,
tammy