I call myself a lurker, but it's really been a short time since I've known about this site...it's only been five days. I discovered this site while doing personal research on the topics of porneia, oral sex, and mutual masturbation, and found a thread on this site about it. Since then, I've been reading all the threads of interest that have been posted between last year and now, and have found some really good (and shocking) stuff. I mention this because although I've been what you might call a "good" JW for the past few years, I've had my doubts on certain things, the most prominent ones being higher education (I'm on my senior year in college now studying engineering) and masturbation, since there's no biblical basis to speak against those two things.
So while reading the threads, I happened upon one that mentioned the Watchtower being affliated with the UN. I thought that there was no way it could be true, but I'm not one to denounce or quickly believe anything without researching on it first, and sure enough, I found the Guardian article on it, as well as the UN documentation proving it. Right then, my image of the Watchtower being a genuine, spirit-directed organization came crashing down. Since Friday I've been hooked reading past threads to see what more I could find, and I've been in awe, like reading all of the BOE letters, finding out about the secret elder's book, 607/587, 1914, and the "new light" controversy.
Just as I was finding out about all this information and wondering what to do and whether I should share this information with my family, I was appointed as an MS in my congregation. Couldn't have come at a better time...
Anyway, I just wanted to share my story, and I find it very comforting that there's a whole community of people who share my feelings. One thing that really surprised me is the fact that there are barely any heated arguments on here, despite this being a community of both active and inactive JWs, among others.
I'm a confused, newly appointed MS, and have no idea on what I should do, because of my family. If I come across anything new that is plain hyprocritical or just glaring deceit, I'm definitely making my exit though, no matter how my family reacts.