I left out of the blue. I was a born in who truly believed it all. I was forced into being baptized at the age of 12 by my parents, I did not have a clue what or why I was doing it. The elders come to my parents home to ask all of us the questions, (I have one sister who is six years older and the four of us were baptized together) the only question I answered was what is God's name. I will never forget the elder when he asked me the question. He looked at his notes and "said LITS has not answered any questions so far from what the other elders have said and to get baptized she really needs to answer at least one." That was when he asked me what God's name was and I passed the test to get baptized.
With that being said I did totally embrace the religion when I was about 16 years old. My parents had pulled me out of school, I had not friends, my parents were abusive to me, I had no one to turn to so I turned to the only thing that was there the religion.
It is a long story about my life, I truly never fit into the religion was rejected over and over but I still believed it, just felt Satan was testing me. I pioneered in my teens, married a man who was older than I was who was also a elder had been one for over 12 years when we married. I pioneered, went to Bethel. I lived the life of the religion, I did everything that was asked of me and more. Opened my house up when ever there was a need. Have had the whole congregation into my 900 foot home on three different times because no one else would even though they had way more room. Always feed the speaker, held going away parties, when someone was sick or hurting I tired to be there for them. Always had our car available for field service, which most of the other elders NEVER DID. Even though I never fit in I tried to be the best I could.
What caused me to leave literally out of the blue was a child molester moved into the hall in 2006. Yet it still took me until 2009 to leave. I kept hoping that I was wrong, that I was seeing things wrong. After tons of emails between me and a attorney elder in the hall and some with the PO and other elders, writing to Bethel, etc and still seeing this guy going out in service without elders, being threatened with being DF'ed by the attorney elder if I did not keep my mouth shut. After being told NO WAS ALLOWED TO NO THE PAST OF THIS MAN or any pedophile! After getting this child molesters, court records and police records which were way worse then I had even imagined and not one elder took them from me expect the (PO) COBE. I did mail them to all the elders, even to Bethel and I have proof that they received them.
The final straw was when this child molester kept going behind the counters at the meeting acting like a MS and none of the elders would stop him, that my husband finally told him to stop and the child molesters shoved my husband in the middle of the hall. After four years of not being able to stop the child molester they could delete my husband from being an elder after he gave 32 years of his life to the cause in one week. They took what I feel is the best years of my husbands life by dumping on him all the problems ones in the hall that most of the other elders refused to handle and even after they deleted him they still thought my husband would do the dirt for them.
I stopped going cold turkey from that day on.
So that is me, I am not DF'ed or reproved, I have not disassociated because I do not want to give them that satisfaction. I know the elders would love to DF me and why they have not is any ones guess. It could be all the letters, emails, and proof of receipts that I have, begging them to stop the pedophiles, plus I have joined SNAP and they also know that. So this is where I am at now.