The insomnia due to researching the Society and stimulants I took to stay awake led to a mental breakdown and I was hospitalized.
Sorry to hear that discreet slave. The magnitude of the disception is overwhelming.
The "annointed", in the Watchtower organization simply means that the leaders who run the printing presses are Justified (sinless before God). The salvation of everyone else is dependent upon doing what the ones who supposedly are Justified says to do. This is a foreign gospel to the early Christian congregation and is but another "damnable heresy".
30 If one has the hope of the high calling and his
expectation is that he will be for ever with Christ.
Jesus in heaven, then he must be dead to everything
earthly ; as it is written : “Set your affection on things
above, not on things on the earth. For ye are dead,
and your life is hid with Christ in God.” (Col. 3 : 2,3)
33 The Jonadabs, or “other sheep”, are in a different
condition. The Jonadabs have fled to the Lord and
there found refuge. They are still human creatures,
not even justified, because the receiving of life everlasting
depends upon their faithful obedience within
God’s organization and faithfully abiding there until
the wrath of God is passed at Armageddon. It follows,
therefore, that a Jonadab would not have the witness
of the spirit that he is a son of God. The Jonadab
must show his appreciation of the goodness of God by
faithfully obeying the commandments of the Lord,
and continue to seek meekness and righteousness and
to joyfully await the time when he shall be fully
ushered into the flock of the Lord and receive life
everlasting on earth.