Jack and I decided we would go to his local Kingdom Hall this morning. Although I have no interest anymore in being a JW, I think its still nice to have regular bible discussions, etc, which can give you something spiritual to think about each week. I love it and I think its damn good for you.
Today, Jack and I walked in, a little nervous, but were greeted and welcomed like friends. It was an incredible experience! The talk and Watchtower were spiritualy stimulating too. Now i look back at it, I see why new ones are drawn to it. It was a lovely experience, but it makes me totaly sad. The people are so nice, so genuine, so kind, but unfortunately, if they were to learn who we truly are, we'd be shunned instantly. There is just no easy way with this organisation is there! Its either all or nothing!
I explained to Jack as we walked home that of course, I know where i stand in terms of the organisation. I DONT believe it is the truth, but i enjoy the way it encourages bible study and discussion in the meetings. In effect, id like to use it purely for what i want and on my own terms. In the matter of becoming one again and sacrificing my relationship with him, my mind and heart are clearly defined.
Do any of you still feel this? Do you still desire the spiritual push or the desire to just have nice friends?