It has been some time since my last post on here and its been hard for me to post much since I'm still in and my fellow dubbies are always poking there heads in my business trying to find something wrong to get me into trouble, but I do enjoy lurking on here from time to time... And I do plan to post here much more in the near future!
Actually, being on this site and reading all of your threads (mostly on my phone) has become my favourite thing to do at meetings and on field service and pretty much anything WTBTS related!
You all have been such a great help and comfort to me when I feel down, seriously even the trolls that come around here every now and then leave me with a sense of tranquility, for it reminds me of how I used to be just like them at one point, it gets me all "happified" to know that I have now awakened and see the "truth" about the truth and feel quite at peace with myself at times.
As some of you that have read my first post may know... I've been working on a really, really long fade, and so far its been going steady to say the least. I am currently trying to prepare myself for the next step, which would be to step down from being a regular pioneer. But first, I must endure one last thing before marking that off the list for good, and that is going to Pioneer school.
Shortly after attending the school, I will quit being a RP for good. I can't say exactly when the time will be but trust me, you'll be the first to know! (I would say "soon" or "just around the corner" but that word and phrase mean nothing to me anymore).
The Piosneer school starts in just a couple weeks, and from what I hear, its going to be hell... Especially for those that no longer believe any of the things from the religion... which in this case would be me.
Would any of you like to share your memories of Poineer school? How was it? Did you like it? Was there class on the weekends too? Were any of you mentally out while you attended? If so, how did you manage?
Also any advice to better help my fade would be most greatly appreciated... All I want in the end is to be truly free. I've never really experienced the feeling, although it has come around and teased me a couple of times.
My dream is to one day wake up in the morning and breath the air of freedom, freedom from this cancer I currently live in. And walk out the door with a smile on my face and feel the wind pass me bye and whisper gently in my ear that everything's going to be okay as I place my first step out into the world and never ever look back.