My self esteam started to grow. I wasn't constantlly being beat down at meetings, I wasn't getting that "so dissapointed in you" look from the JW's. I was working and supporting myself after loosing everything I owned to the LM. In only three months I was able to get my feet on the ground. I even had some friendships from work.
My three moths were up and I was offered to keep the job permanently. I tossed the idea around for a while but decided to go back to WV to Ahab. I still had JW thinking and told him if I came back we would have to marry right away. Sure he was a bit confused, I was willing to have an affair and now after my confession, I wouldn't get together unless we were married. I just NEVER wanted to have another JC! I promissed myself I would NEVER violate myself that way again.
We didn't want the whole world to know we got married, but before we got back from our honeymoon everyone knew. I was told all the JW's were dissapointed in me again. His ex was quite pissed too, not that I blame her. She started a rumor that they weren't divorced. She thought they still had papers to sign and she was going to refuse to sign them for a while. Truth was they were divorced.
Wes The Ass, an elder in my hall at the time, heard about it and wanted to make a JC over it. He even went to the court house and got a copy of there divorce papers as proof. There was no proof, they were dovorce! I refused to meet with them and told the Dave, a good elder, that it was a rumor and not true.
I contacted a lawyer and explained the situation just to make sure it wasn't true. He reasured me that they were divorced before me married.
At this time Wes The Ass wrote the GB to see if they should continue with a JC. This took months for a reply. During this time I started to wake up. I was so hurt! I didn't understand the reasoning behind such a bogus reason to DF me.
I was watching a gold fish pond, as my husband had job interview. For an hour I watched these fish swim, and it hit me. There is no possable way the God that made these fish would want me to die at the big A because of a rumor. It made me think that there is a major problem with this religion.
I joined this site and a few others. I was a dry sponge soaking up all the information I could. I spent hours at a time reading stories and learning the real "truth" I read on this site to read Crisis of Conscience and Steve hansons books.
I couldn't put them down untill I read them from cover to cover. When I was half was through Crisis of Conscience I looked up at Ahab and said "they are wrong, JW are not God's chosen people" The grin on his face was priceless.
I went to the next step half way through Steve Hansons book and looked up and said "JW are a cult" Same great grin.
The GB wrote back and yes, they said there was enough proof to have a JC. For the sake of the reputation in the community...
I contaced two more lawyers and made sure there wasn't anything to there accusations. I even had one lawyer agree I had a case against them, for slander. I decided if they persued it I would sue them. Dave some how stalled them for two years. Yes two years after we were married Wes The Ass and the new CO show up at my house looking for me. I wasn't home and Ahab said I wouldn't be home till Monday.
When Ahab first told me they were looking for me I got so angry! I thought of all the things I was going to say to them. Monday came around and I knew they would show up. It was Wes The Ass and Otis. I opened the door and when I saw how pathetic they looked I didn't say anything. They were smiling and said "Hi Raveen it is good to see you..." I had a straight face NO SMILE and just looked at them and didn't say a peep. Wes The Ass then said "uhh we are here to invite you to a meeting..... a JC concerning your marriage"
I SLAMMED THE DOOR IN THERE FACES!
At first I thought well it's over. They will now DF me without me. The next day after going for a jog with Ahab I started to panic. I NEVER wanted them to come to my house again. I decided to write on a sticky note "I no longer want to be known as One of Jehovah's Witnesses, sincerlly Raveen" We drove up the the KH and I put it in the door. There were a lot of cars in the parking lot, from people in FS and I was hoping a "publisher" would be the first to see it not an elder. I got my wish as the news quickly spread. I wanted them to know I didn't want to be part of the cult, not that I got kicked out!
I thought about suing but by this time I was over it. I just didn't want them in my life anymore!