This board is awesome and the reaction so unexpected and a little overwhelming. Today my sisters harsh coments sunk in and after feeling a little blue I think I am working my way through it slowly but surely. It was the speed at which she rushed to my mother to make sure she was going to behave appropriately that hurt the most. I feel so sorry for her so deep in the cult so blind to human compassion. I feel I will not be able to save her from it and that makes me sad.
I told the school today what happened to say they were totally shocked and dumbfounded was an understatement. When you try to explain the unexplainable it strikes you how truly shocking the behavior is. It is hard for witnesses to maintain christian credibility when this sort of issue becomes public knowledge. My intention was not to make the witnesses look bad but there is no way to dress it up that makes sense to sane people.
Several things strike me today the first is one of the opening statements in CofC where the author says that he felt he had to stand for something. When we were fading it seemed that we were not making an affirmative stand although the children were prominent in our original decision to fade with dignity. I felt bad because what I was finding out was so shocking I felt bad not telling everyone they were being lied to.
I also thought of how many times in the book study when we discussed the heroes of old how often we would be asked whether we would be like those who had courage or whether we would be part of the people who went along with corruption and false teaching. I had always suspected I would have been one of those keeping my head down. It is nice to think I can make a stand for myself and my children that I have principles and will stick with them. It makes me happy that this exit is based on a principle and now I can tell others what I know.
It is also a relief not to have to justify the madness to have the space to think and get a perspective and not worry about what I think and say.
Please everyone be aware that it was Cantleave revealing his on line id here on another forum that gave them the hook. I would suggest that if you do not want to be stalked as we were then keep this a secret and reveal it to no one.
I would say that if my cyber stalking is still lurking then perhaps he could pass on this message to the elders who knowing the impact of high emotion on an autistic child and a depressive took the route of zealous harrassment, if you need to contact me urgently I am a busy lady and cannot for the sake of my children have any more visits to the house. If you need to pass on any information please feel free to PM me here I am happy to read and digest any information you provide. I appreciate that this is all about control but this is my preferred method of contact. Please also tell the body that under the freedom of information act I want visibility of all records held on me including the material being used at my JC.It shouldn't be too difficult for someone with your on line skills to scan the documents. I may be considering legal action making you the stalker personally liable for the invasion of privacy you have undertaken. That is all for now, but once I have taken legal advice I may have more requests to make.
