Its been a long time coming but i kinda think im finally at the point of NO return......
Right or wrong, i have spoken to my 'friends' about my new feelings and the fact i no longer believe that this is Gods chosen people etc etc... and have already been told that if i was to now celebrate my childs birthdays , her 'truth' friends would not be able to come to sleep again and associate with her... (she is 7). This is despite the fact they are allowed to play with there non witness friends who live down the road....WHY?? The explanation is that their daughter would perhaps feel it is ok to do this when it is not... i ask why could they not just simply explain it is not our family's belief anymore (as my husband is with me on my decision), and my response is that it would be difficult to do that as we once were witnesses and now are not so it would confuse her daughter and make her think its ok to do these things now...
Im left feeling confused, alone, scared and wondering if i am a bad person? Am i doing the right thing??
What do i tell my daughter now when she asks why her friend cannot come to stay?
Where do i go from here? My mother-in-law left the witnesses after bringing all her children up in it only to regret bringing them up in that way of life now. She is a good person, a genuinly lovely person, she is not disfellowshipped or disassociated... but some do choose to ignore her. How is that right? Is that what God truly expects from 'his people' ... shun and distance yourself from anyone who no longer follows this practice??
Im just confused, and a little scared of the unknown...where do i go from here... i dont wanna be a morman!