Well my situation has developed a bit, any advice appreciated.
Their has been a gradual building up of pressure ever since I stood down as an elder about 6 months ago.
I have been telling my wife about my doubts but have continued to attend "some" meetings.
As time has progressed I have become more open with my criticism of the org.
I mentioned the UN scandal, molestation trials, false prophecy ect etc.
Interestingly she does not deny these facts and yet still wants to continue as a JW.
I told her that God is not happy with people knowingly being part of a false prophet (Deut 18 - etc) - starting to lay the groundwork for my exit.
She appreciates the difficult situation doubters are in - they cannot openly express their feelings for fear of JCs.
Anyway, a few weeks ago we moved house which meant changing congregation.
But I felt it would be best if I did not attend meetings " at all" at the new cong so my fade could be easier.
But I could not have predicted my wifes response - when I told her it was an explosion of emotion, I mean real heartbreaker stuff.
She seems depressed at the prospect, perhaps the reality is finally hitting home.
Last night, about 3a.m. I noticed that she was not in bed. I went downstairs and she was sobbing away to herself.
"I can't go to that hall myself!" she said. "I do not know anyone!".
This of course cuts to the heart of me - you see my wife is a wonderful loving person but, not the most confident. Making new friends is a challenge for her.
So the prospect of going to a new hall is alot for her to bear on her own.
The reason I was a bit surprised by her reaction is that I had sent out so many signals to let her know I was planning to exit, but they must have got lost in translation, she missed the point.
So back to 3 a.m. - My wife says this - "At this point I just want to pack it all in, I cant bare going on my own. It is easier not to attend".
So you see my problem - the way I see it I have 2 choices...
1. Attend meetings for a while until she feels settled in the cong.
2. Stand my ground and hopefully she would stop attending even though it is causing strain / emotionional problems.
This morning she seems a lot better but I need to decide how to react to this.
What do you think???