Welcome, big hug to you!!!
I cannot even imagine the pain you must feel right now, but don't listen to those elders!! Go get some professional help and learn how to fake being a witness... It must feel horrible to miss your family, so get in and then slowly get out!! (Others may have a different opinion, but that's what I would do if I were you)... just make sure you "vaccinate" yourself against mind control!
Read as much as you can on WT mind control techniques, about all the wrong things with the WT, and when you go back, just go back for your family, and then get the hell out (inactive)!!
Before you are in, read Hassan's Combatting Cult Mind Control, and know it well... then help your family get out
You are very much welcome here!! Anytime!!