This is my first post on JWD....
It seems like an easy place to start..... I am in the process of being disfellowshipped for the second time.
My weekends are my own now and I love that. I keep waiting for all the catasrophic, painful attacks of the "outside world" to hit me......... but guess what? They aren't there. Life without guilt and attempts to assasinate my character is so peaceful. I was so lonely as a JW. The lack of acceptance alone is enough to make you crazy. I have finally accepted myself for who I am .... and I like me. I am not a horrible person because I quit attending meetings and going in service........ I am not even a horrible person because I smoke. I was a horrible person for pretending for too long. I have lost my parents and brother and sister in the process....... which is hard to deal with, but I have expressed my openness to them for those relationships to be rekindled. I have my boys, who are also disfellowshipped. We are a great support for each other.
So this weekend is relaxing..... one of my sons has gone to visit my oldest son at college for the weekend. I have recently become re-aquainted with some of my friends who have also left the organization and we will probably have a drink or two tonight. I also have a wonderfully compassionate man who I will undoubtedly spend the rest of the weekend with.
Its just living life..... doing the things I need and want to do....... and not worrying, feeling guilty or second guessing myself all the time.
I hope you all have a peaceful weekend. I'm glad to be here.