It's a funny thing. My brother, who is also DFed, has been for 14 yrs (baaad family), well he said to me last year that he now experiences almost mind-numbing happiness. He takes all the 'positives' from his time in the org and keeps them, as well as all the other positives. I thought....WOW...you really can be ecstatically happy out of the JWs . That was when the penny dropped for me. The secret in finding that 'joy' is simply to let yourself!
My joy comes from my boys, knowing that they're free and seeing them develop and progress into handsome and pretty damn bright young men.
From nature. I'm a nature boy. May is my favourite month and it's fast approaching. Over here in England the hedgerows become 'filled' with the flowers of the Hawthorn tree and for me...looking down from a vantage point onto the green patchwork quilt of fields that are so characteristic of the English countryside, with the creamy white Hawthorn flowers contrasting against the bright young and fresh green of spring....that my friend is pure joy. 'All the milkiness of May' as H.E. Bates called it. Just a thought.