I began to refuse to go to the meetings between 13 and 14 years old. It was about a year before 1975. I did not believe that God was creating babies only to plan on killing them in 1975. I had a natural knowledge inside me that God was good. Life was beautiful. Nature was glorius in all its diversity.
As far as hell goes, I believe that there is spirit within me. That spirit will not die, and all the love we have ever known will go with us. I have no desire to spend eternity with baby molestors and the truly evil. They need to be where they are happy, they hate beautiful things, they abuse beautiful people, they destroy children. There is a natural balance in all things; good evil, day and night, the sun the moon, hatred and love.
I went back to the meetings as an adult and Mother Theresa had just started many group homes and charities;
Vocation of Mother Teresa
Beginning in 1980, homes began to spring-up for drug addicts, prostitutes, battered women, and more orphanages and schools for poor children around the world. In 1985, Mother Teresa established the first hospice for AIDS victims in New York. Later homes were added in San Francisco and Atlanta. Mother Teresa was awarded Medal of Freedom, the highest U.S. civilian award.
I still did not yet have the WTBTS out of my ststem. The elders wives who were studying with me said that Mother Theresa in all her goodness would die at Armageddon. Again I knew that just was not in line with what was in my heart.