Well, I haven't been to a meeting in almost 4 years, but I had wanted to go back for almost the entire time. It's been maybe 3-4 months since I started to SEE what the org really was.
I would say I was at about a five. Some days are good and I don't think about it, but other days, whew..I just can't get the crap out of my head.
I think I've got most of my mind back. It helps that I spent more years of my life out of the troof than in. Making more decisions on my own w/o a jw filter is a whole helluva lot easier now. Then again, while I was there i made alot of decisions on my own anyway.