Your post sure made me think. You have exposed a lot of my emotions as well.
Being raised as a JW certainly for as a woman, didn't do much to build my self esteem. I was never good enough!
I thought I was doing a HUGE life saving work, and I guess that made me feel a sense of "self worth". All my real talents had to be banished to be a "spiritual person". So after fading, and still NOW trying to piece my life together and make some sense of it, I am still floundering like a fish out of water.
... Now what?
I have come to the conclusion that life doesn't have to be that "big". That being a good person and helping your neighbors or a complete stranger, making a difference in their life is JUST AS IMPORTANT...maybe more so.
I have an neighbor that calls me her "angel". She is going thru a divorce and has no family here. WE have become like sisters and are great friends. I have went thru a divorce and wonderd WHY me....now I know, WHY me? I have the experience and know coping strategies that many people don't have and the compassion and empathy for others that go thru this experience.
The people on this board have been HIGHLY supportive to me and I REALLY appreciate it!....I use to LIVE on this board the first 2 years I started posting!!!
Merry, you aren't alone and never will be, despite the fact your family are shunning you. Keep posting and sharing your thoughts.
Remember: Your posts make a difference in someone's life........ and to me, that is what makes living worthwhile!
Smile...and have a great day!