Lynn I have to say that I think your feelings on this are normal and justified. if you just sat here and accepted everything you read at face value you won't be any further ahead than if you stayed with the JWs.
There are some very devout Christains here. I think one of the differences though is that after years of preaching door to door they tend to be a bit quieter than many of others who have accepted other beliefs.
I still be lieve in some power or being that is greater than me. I'm still working on what that is. I do know I am more spiritual than I ever was as a JW. I am more connected to my spirituality than I ever was. That feels good to me. And I feel no particular need to force some sort of belief. I'm sure that a loving Father will understand my need for caution in this matter.
There are so many others here who feel so betrayed by the WTS. They too feel a great need to explore and find their own ways. I don't think any of us are willing to accept that anyone has the "truth" We demand more than someone saying "Because I said so."
Keep reading. Keep learning. Keep exploring what is right for you. I believe the statement "Seek and you shall find"