Hi all
It's been a while that I posted the last time.
A lot of things happened. My wife separated in January and since then I have to fight for solutions also concerning my visitation right for my little boy. But that's another story I will maybe write another time.
Now I have another problem where I need your advice.
In December, I told the elders (with all my reasons) that I would accept blood in a medical urgency for me and my son (my wife wanted that I tell the elders).
Since then, I had long discussions with the elders about my view on blood and also about shunning. First I thought, they would leave it at that, but today, they had another meeting with me and said:
They need a clear statement, a clear answer from me to the following questions:
Do you accept and believe that the faithful and discreet slave is the governing body and is directed by Jehovah?
Do you accept the teachings that the faithful and discreet slave set up?
During the discussion today, they asked if I view myself as a JW. I said yes, because I dedicated my life to my creator, not to a human organisation. I also told them, that I might have my whole life some doubts, but that I don't want to focuse on them any longer. I want to focus on positive things, also positive things about the organisation. I also told them, that I am confused. But this all didn't work to let me be. They still want an answer to above questions.
(If possible, I don't want to be DA or DF as it would complicate my complicated life even more. It would hurt my parents, even though they would still keep contact).
The elders give me some time to think about it. But they made it clear, that they need an answer to above questions and that this answer would determine, if I can continue to be a JW or not.
So what is the best way to react now? (I would be happy for some advice)
I thought of the following possibilities:
1. LYING
If I lie and tell them, yes, I believe the FDS. Then they would interrogate me to find out if I really mean it. Then they would try to help me spiritually that I go again in field service.
For me, this possibility is the worst one.
2. GIVE THEM NO ANSWER AT ALL (NO AUTHORITY FOR THEM)
They would probably take this as my refusal of the FDS and go with DA.
3. GIVE THEM AN ANSWER LIKE:
"I accept and respect the governing body as a human organisation, which no doubt gives its best, to live according to (their understanding) the bible and to serve Jehovah. If the allmighty creator Jehovah and his son Jesus are directing their decisions, I can not tell, as I am just a small human being and cannot see the minds of Jehovah and Jesus."
or I could say something like "Matthew 28:18 I accept that Jesus has been given all authority in heaven and on earth."
How would you react? Or what other answer do you think of?
Thank's for your help.
Daniel