I can't take any more of this financial blackmail that these heartless creditors are doing against me. I really can't. Every time I find a way to get by on my new circumstances, I recieve a new surprise in the mail or in some fashion. This time it was my bank account. The company not only took every cent I had out of it, they charged an additional 75.00 for their fee so I can't even close the account without paying that. Plus, I now have four checks that are going to bounce and then I'll owe 25.00 more to the bank for each of those and an additional 25.00 to each of the places I just paid.
So, I'm working sixty hours a week and that's not even going to be enough. I'm out of solutions and I'm sick of looking for them. I can't file for bancruptcy because no lawyer will take me on without the fee up front and not even the three hudnred and sixty six dollars I had in my checking account is safe.
You want to know what the best part is though? Here, I'll tell you. Since I can't maintain a valid bank account anymore, I can't self-publish my book through lulu.com since I need to tie it to a bank account to get it to work. My mom offered to let me use hers, but then that would just create a link between me and her account and they'd come after her. So, I'm screwed again.
All of my problems today are rooted in the same place. Jehovah's hellspawened Witnesses. I have had nothing but trouble from the second I accepted that stupid bible study with those self-righteous assholes. I have lost everything I value: friends, wives, jobs, belongings, cars, money, time, respect, credibility, and half of my sanity (or more) from having dealings with that horrid organization and I still can't even break even today. I have to fight and fight so I can just sink slower.
Anyway, I told my mom tonight that I"m leaving in a month. I'm going to give a two-week notice to each of my jobs tomorrow and I'm going to go away. I'm not sure where, but somewhere where my fucking creditors can't find me. I've always wanted to see europe and since I can't keep myself above water anyway, I might as well go there now. So, I'm going to use my final three or four paychecks (I can't remember how many I have coming) to get a ticket somewhere.
So what you see before you is a converted optimist. I've seen the light. Hope, wishing, faith, and doing your best are all a bunch of cute ideas that make hollywood movies give us the warm and fuzzies, but don't mean shit in real life.