AllTimeJeffs Story

by AllTimeJeff 116 Replies latest members private

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  AllTimeJeff

  I re-read this for the first time in a while.

  I have had a busy time at work, but its good for me to remember that 3 years ago, I was flat on my back in Africa. And I am back home. I could be stuck in a missionary home in Cameroon during the Great Recession, wondering why I stuck with a cult and crazy ex. At least I got out....

  I know that probably what I say gets more attention cause I went to Gilead, and to be sure, I have had some whacked out, crappy, no one should have to go through that, experiences.

  But truthfully, all the drama was my own doing. I had so many chances to make different choices, but I didn't. And I liked the attention. So no one should think that well of me cause I left. I wanted to help JW's, but I liked all the attention till I got to Gilead. Gilead caused me to look in the mirror and see the track I was on, and I didn't like it one bit.

  I have seen that my experiences do benefit some, so that is cool. I hope everyone knows I really respect and admire all who left. It takes a lot of courage and integrity to start over again.
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  gubberningbody

  I think it's important to be involved w/whatever you're involved with otherwise you'll never find out what's wrong with it. Your experience as well as that I've discerned in others is indicative of deep involvement. It's a good characteristic to have. It got you and others out.
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  Scott77

  Narkissos,

  Wow, did not know you missed it. I think that part is the most key points or highlights of Jeff's life after leaving the cult. Iam glad it caught your attention.

  Thanks

  Scott77
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  Chalam

  Awesome story Jeff!

  BUMPING UP

  I feel a book coming on. You are about halfway through :)

  All the best,

  Stephen
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  Confucious

  Wow.

  How did I miss this thread the first time.
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  AllTimeJeff

  Before bed, I just want to point out something. I was attacked twice in Africa at knifepoint. Mark Noumair, a Gilead instructor made reference to occasions when the authorities detained them.

  Another missionary couple from Michigan, whom I bumped into at a grocery store and freaked out after I left, had guns pulled on them multiple times in Africa. (Uganda I think) One time, the military had their faces to the ground with guns aimed at their heads.

  I bring this up because as you read my story and of my attacks, I want you to know that this happens every year all around the world to missionaries, esp in Africa. It can happen anywhere, I know.

  So though I did go through some extraordinary stuff, it is somewhat common.

  It pisses me off, but I have no one but myself to blame, and that is why I left. The ones who stay, well, they're the really crazy ones....
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  monkeyman

  Jeff, loved your story, painful as it was to write. For me writing has been cathartic. My experience has been painful but not compared to yours. You're a good writer. Looking to hear more about Gilead.

  Question on the x-wife...........her response to you was bizarre. In examining mental health issues, Have you ever been able to put a label on it?
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  VIII

  Wow! Incredible story of how you left. Admirable. I am really sorry about your brother. I hope you have hooked back up with your parents and they are OK.
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  cantleave

  Jeff - I have read your references to your brother and almost being killed in Africa, this is the first time I have actually read the account. I am sitting in here in tears reflecting on how you must have felt when you realised that you gave up so much for a Cult. It must have been so hard for you to have overcome the emotional turmoil you experienced. I am so glad you have survived and have been able to pick up the pieces, many would have found that impossible. I know this sounds shallow and corny but your really are an inspiration.
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  wannabefree

  btt