D. E.and Ross:
Thank you so much for your cordial replies. Ross and I have good discussions on faith whenever he comes to visit.
Before I was a JW I had believed in Buddhism for many years. After I exited the JWs I joined an Ancient Bible History group, of which I'm still a member, read all I could about the Bible and decided Buddhism was best for me after all. I guess that's what it all boils down to - we find a belief system that suits us. I'm happy being 'Buddhist' because it answers my questions better than anything else I have found and one doesn't have to believe in a Creator. However, I do not belong to any one school of Buddhism because I find they can be as dogmatic as any Christian denomination. I cannot speak for paganism as I don't know much about it.
When I see the sorry sights I see at the hospital - and I'm pleased everything went well for you, D.E. - I can explain them away better through the teaching of karma. There's still much I don't understand, of course, but knowing there is no Creator makes suffering more understandable. We suffer because we ourselves have caused it - be it in this life or somewhere in a past life.
The hardest thing that I have ever encountered was when I came close to death. I was genuinely afraid, not of death itself, which I would have welcomed at the time because I was really suffering, but in the manner in which I felt I might die. Obviously, it would be wonderful to be strong at such a time and, indeed, some people are. Many of these, but not all, have a faith in God. Therefore, I understand why a belief in a Creator is so important to so many people. It genuinely can bring comfort at much needed times.
I do believe there is more to life than we know or believe. I strongly believe we are one with each other and with the universe - but I cannot prove it. One thing always runs through my mind. Buddhists believe all things are impermanent, which they are. Therefore, death, too, must be impermanent.
Love,
Ian