Good luck... dont be so defensive.. people are going to check out your story, before they offer you help. It is how you react to that, that may effect the kind of help you get.
I grew up on the streets... literally, after leaving this religion. I was an adult by the time I slept in a bed again, an adult. I used to sleep on the roof-tops of fast food joints to avoid being raped. I have slept under school busses in the snow...
but it is what you learn from the experience that can make you a strong person. It sounds weird... but I kinda miss those days... not really , but it is how I grew up... my roots I guess. I was able to learn so much about "the human condition" . I believe it is why I am a successfull artist now.
Hang in there.... heck! you are in a good position to just "see" things. Your schedule certainly permits for a few walks alone in the park or the woods.... look around man.... SEE the world. You might be surprised. Learn from it. Feed on it. Protect yourself.
Be safe man, my thoughts are with you. That DOES matter.