Topics Started by zanex
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zanex remembers...and writes
by zanex inmy breathing quickens.
something tightens around my chest.
walls closing in.
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zanex sez ltrz
by zanex in.
i'm outta here...been nice meetin y'all...not sure whats gonna happen but...ltrz...gotta focus on livin outside of this board.....
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zanexical connundrum
by zanex ini met a lady...as i have mentioned here before i am going thru a divorce and it hasnt been the nicest thing in the world...i met someone who has been very nice to me and patient with me and doesnt expect anythin out of me other than for me to be myself..she is a non-jw..we have been kind of just seein each other randomly.
i like her...i am a bit nervous about gettin into any type of relatinship just now and she understands that and accepts that.
i feel sooo scarred by what happened to me in that horridly destructive marriage that i dont know if i am ever going to be able to completely trust women in general but this one has been proving herself to be nothing but trustworthy and honest.
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trippin...
by zanex inwow so i am totally confuzed now...my dad sent me a page on my 2 way pager last nite sayin that he had an email that he was going to send to my ex and her parental units and that he wanted to make sure that i was ok with the content that was going to be in the letter.
now knowing me and my past experiences i'm sure everyone here knows how extremely crass i took that, i was totally expecting something negative and scathingly dubbish...in reality tho when i got to a computer and read what he had written i am loathe to say that my jaw was on the ground...they stood up for me!
my ex has 2 sets of parents that has been totally assisting her and i have been on my own out here but now i think that maybe i will get some assistance from my parents of all people!
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certifiable...it was bound to happen
by zanex inwell its official now i guess...i went to see the doc the other day cuz of all the mental crap that has been wreaking havoc on my mind lately and wreaking havoc on my sleeping and eating patterns.
namely i havent been sleeping or eating much if any.
i was given, much to my humor, xanax...sigh.
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zanex gettin creative?
by zanex ini saw the fires light.
i heard the cries of silence.
freedom was coming.
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drunk ramblings
by zanex insee now that i have hit that nice threshold of drunk i finally see clearly the scam and the bogus load of crap that i was spoon fed for years and years that did nothing for me but fuck with my head.
lol i probably shudnt be trying to post anything considering the amount of alkehol i have drank at this point.
its so freakin easy to just write off all those fockers when i cant think straight enuff to care.
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mom,dad,exwife
by zanex inso like i am not sure how to react to latest in my own personal war against my exwife, and my jw parents who for some reason have decided to take up with my exwife...they send her nice regular emails and give her all the info on their regular life and they talk to her like a normal person.
my ex was never a jw...as df'd dub myself i shud have expected that kind of shallow behavior from my parents but for some reason i find that it still hurts to know that my own friggin parents wont communicate with me cuz of that stigma.
like my own friggin mom is going into the hospital cuz she has some type of growth in her brain and neither her nor my dad had the decency to let me know.